I rang my new years in from the comfort of home with a few of my girl friends watching the ball drop while eating pizza and sipping on Martinelli’s (sparkling cider). And although I am one for girl time, I couldn’t help but to roll my eyes to all the happy people on tv kissing their loved ones as 2013 rolled in. Shortly afterwards, I decided to make an addition to my new years resolution.
I’m not one for resolutions, but this year I decided that I would have one and it would be a simple one. My first resolution is: When I wear make up, always remember to line my eyes. Sometimes I only line my bottom lid other times I don’t line them at all. Well not this year,I resolve my eyes will always be lined! I feel like a better woman for it.
But like I said, I did decide to add another one. I am a closet romantic and secretly looking for love. I pretend to not care or to be jaded, but I’m not, I love love. Even though I hate all the hurt that being in love causes, I still believe that love is the strongest and most beautiful force in the universe. However, this year, things will be different.
I will not secretly pine for love. I will not secretly wonder why I am 30 and single and worry that something is wrong with me. I will not do it anymore. Nope! This is the year that I stop. That I let my desire to love and be love go and just live. I will not focus on it, I am taking off of my vision board. I will not be consumed by that desire.
With that said, this also means that no one is allowed to release that kind of energy into the atmosphere on my behalf. We can no longer have discussions (in front of me or behind my back) on why I am single…MOM! Let’s not care. Don’t feel sorry for me. I’m over it. I’m 30 and perpetually single. It’s not a bad thing.
I love God, my family, my friends and myself. That’s enough love to last me an eternity!